:(

Back to college for S4.
S3 turned out to be like the ultimate disaster of my life. I know I was too happy last sem, loving college and all, but now, I'm like so terrified of it! I'm not sure how I'm gonna tackle this place; coz I have a feeling S3 was just a trailer of what's gonna follow. I just .hope I take it gracefully enough.
Good luck to me.

(bitin nails)....

Waiting for my results- should have been out by now; the link's there but the page is under contruction. Damn this makes me so damn nervous!!! Just keeping my fingers crossed...

A lotta cheese....

Damn my last post was so damn cheesy!! Like too much too too much of it! Like dude I'm already so stuffed up, more cheese is only gonna make things go from bad to worse to unimaginable extents!!!
Okay, I should start talking some sense now, too long you've been reading non-sense!
Actually, it's like when I study right, my mind like totally goes numb, and then when I start talking, the greater possibility is I have no idea what I'm talking! So, like right now, just finished my exams, that means been studying properly for the last two weeks and it's been a helluva two weeks; so my mind really needs some time to come back to atleast it's usual!
Hmmm, so end of the semester, going home tomorrow and this has been the best semester I've ever had; like I know it was only my third, five more to go; and it's been like so so much of work; yet I had an amazing time and many people from here would roll their eyes when they hear me say this but I do like my college; and c'mon I think this is the only one I'm ever gonna go to, so I'm allowed to say this!
So time to go home tomorrow; I can't believe it's time to go, like it's winter back home, and I'm gonna be home this christmas, like I'm so glad I'm gonna be dere; yet I wish I just wish wish wish, I could extend this semester like a chewing gum, like the best chewing gum that was ever made, and I could go on and on and on extending it forever...

adios S3

Three weeks for the semester to end, the exam time blues are setting in again. Semester three's been one hell of a time; while college is finally somewhat like college, like this is the only one I have ever been to so this is what I believe it's supposed to be like; but inside the class, life has been hell. I never knew signing up for EEE at NITC officially meant signing up to get screwed; for that's what would initially happen to everybody in nearly every hour, then of course, we all grew used to getting shocked. But again, what I'm yet to get used to is getting shocked after every sessionals. Then, there are/were the labs: the ultimate experience - you gotta experience it to know it.
Yet, its been one hell of a lazy semester, getting on sluggishly, like finally falling into place in here I guess. But seems like time just flew this semester; first semester never seemed to end; and this S3 - I sorta wanted this to go on forever - is over so soon!
Of course, the end semesters remain: I know they're gonna be hell too, so just keeping my fingers crossed.

Rain dance @ NITC

Tonight was the tathva '08 cultural night (and yesterday was musical night or maybe vice versa but i don't know for sure and it doesn't matter at all because there is basically no difference between these two concepts at NITC, atleast no tangible one!).
It's been raining lately in here, seems like kind of tryin to make up for all the rain that didn't happen when it was supposed to! So it's been pouring and spoiling evrybody's moods here. Like, so much that day I of tathva, many of the stalls couldn't be put up.
So anyway, chuck that and let's come back to this cultural night I'm talking about. It was at the OAT, of course and I have already talked about it here. So enter like 90 min late, and its like pouring just the way it has been all of tathva. And everyone's seated under umbrellas; I can't come up with a good description of exactly what it was like, but basically, it was a tale of broken umbrellas and wet asses!
Since I wanted neither, we just stood there for sometime (the cultural night had been renamed rain dance @ NITC by then! ;) ), trying to appreciate the music, but sometimes it's really difficult to appreciate things you can't understand at all (I'm referring to malayalam music and us being a long way from it even after more than a year here).
So we set this deadline sort of a thing, 'we'll try just three more songs and if it doesn't get better, we're outta here'. After two songs I was only too glad to be leaving soon but out of nowhere, the third song turned out to be one of my friends' favorites and, to my utter dismay, we were staying.
However slowly the music somehow got better and we have this theory: because we don't understand most of the music and yet we can't afford to get bored there, so whatever the music is, we just dance, for our own entertainment!! So we did just that, and then there was some good music too and ultimately, there finally was a musical night I enjoyed, like truly enjoyed...

Tathva '08

Its tathva, our college techfest.
And guess what job I landed: my dream job - playing diner girl!
Lol...if that left you stumped! But tell you what? One of my favorite fantasies is to own a beach cafe, somewhere down in the Latin Americas! So did I just get a step closer to my dream???
Lol...me and my fantasies!!!

Hot! Hot! Hot!

The latest thing in my life, rather out of my life: we don't have a fan in our room.
We're living practically on the equator, in the middle of a drought; our room fan wasn't working properly and was making so much noise that the entire floor was complaining, and when we complained about it, they took the fan away and said 'sorry, no supply of fans right now'!!!

Really???

And guys, guys, guys....this other page I just came across:


5 Very Cool Things About College

  • Meeting your BFFs: Because you’re on your own for the first time, the friends you make in college become like a surrogate family. And those bonds tend to be lasting ones.

  • Not having a curfew: Now that Mom and Dad aren’t waiting up, you can come home pretty much whenever you want...if at all.

  • Getting a fresh start: College is a clean slate — no one will know you had a nose job or were considered part of the nerd herd in high school. Plus, with so many students with diverse interests, you’ll easily be able to find people who are your type.

  • Enjoying more free time: Because you have more control over your schedule, you may be able to sleep in a few mornings a week and have Fridays off entirely.

  • Taking interesting classes: A few core requirements aside, you can choose courses that appeal to you and avoid ones that don’t.


  • Source:http://www.cosmopolitan.com/you/advice/Your-College-Survival-Guide-9

    If you ain't here at NITC, you may not see the point why I pit this up here; but if you are, well, just, whatever this is, we're all in this together...

    Calicut City

    I have been scouring the internet lately, hoping to come across something interesting in this city maybe that nobody in college knows about. There isn't a lot of matter on this city in particular but today I finally came across an article that sort of confirmed my worst fears! Following are some excerpts:

  • There is not much to see or do in this city.

  • You can walk along the fairly uninteresting beach here...

  • It is not safe to walk alone on the beach...


  • And trust me, these were the most interesting parts of the article! You can check out the page yourself at http://www.vegetarian-restaurants.net/India-Guide/IndianStates/Kerala/Kozhikode.htm
    However, I also came across this page fron the IIM Kozhikode Students' Portal. I must say it's quite optimistic but after nearly a year and a half here, I find it unbelievable. http://iimklive.com/news/news/kozhikode-one-of-the-best-places-to-live-129-1.html

    Whatever...

    My blog feels dead, like really...I don't even know why I write the posts that I do write, for I can't see why anybody would be interested in reading the stuff that I write. So, am in a sort of a dilemma, between deleting my blog and going on with posting just anything that comes to my mind. Any votes for either are welcome, yet again, how many will actually come across my blog and read this post.
    But anyways, do notice the text scrolling to the left of the page; I don't know how that happened but it looks cool ;)

    Feels like saturday....


    Less than two weeks left for our second sessionals and it's put me in the mood for blogging once again! Today's id so finally, all the restaraunts in town that have remained closed will finally opening, so we finally got somewhere in the city to go (there's nothing else to do in the city). But that doesn't mean we're going! Everyone's just too lazy to even get off their beds (neither have I yet!). After an extended week last week, these two days off feel like the weekend just got displaced by two days ;)
    So me finally in a good mood, but as usual, in this place, there's a lack of things to do, so I'm afraid it may not take long for my high spirits to disappear!
    Anyways for the time being, since I don't have any plans to get off the bed anytime soon, I'm gonna try giving my blog a (much needed, I think) new look!

    Stagnation

    Its been quite some time since my last post; been kinda caught up with college work and stuff. Things are getting sort of stagnant in here now; like I'm getting used to the daily life here except for the occasional shocks we get in class, which is also something I've sort of started expecting...
    So things are getting boring again; and tis place is starting to get to me again...

    English as a Second Language - Megan Crane


    This is what I've been up to all day - decided to do what I love best: reading!
    And this was the first thing I found, lying around 'unwanted' in the hostel, labelled 'boring'!!!
    But I loved the book, and have been wondering ever since I finished the book: did I like the book because I had nothing else to do or am I that big a nerd that I like any and everything that I read!!

    Boredom Prevails...hopelessly!!

    Its onam - I guess it is the most important festival in Kerela because its the only one that's celebrated in college, that too separately by each department; especially considering the fact that there is no fresher's or farewell in this college (waaaah!) I'm like totally totally uder the impression that this is probably 'the' festival for these people.
    It's also the only thing we get a holiday for!! And most of the students have gone home; I unfortunately would probably have to turn around half-way if I even attempted trying to go home, to reach back college in time!!
    So here I am, stuck in the middle of nowhere, doing nothing when everybody's expecting me to be doing something!! Last year, we were like trapped in the hostel for nearly a week (first year was jail, we weren't allowed to go anywhere except to class!), yet we had a pretty good time, playing stupid games, bitching about our seniors, our fantasies etc. etc. This year however, the situation has changed drastically; with most of my friends busy with their own lives and the rest, glued to their laptops all day (another thing totally beyond me); I realize I am again stuck with no life (reminds me of high school, but again there was no time then to get bored!). Hmmm...so I failed to connect yet again!!
    Add to that, an extra disastrous first sessionals this semester, and my whole hope that things will sort out here is fading away not so slowly!!

    Child of Boredom!!!

    Our first sessionals got over on thursday and I'm back to the realisation that this place is actually boring, however much I may try to like it!
    So we hit the city today; did some exploring actually, and discovered this place has some cool stores if nothing else (though those stores remain empty most of the time!!).
    Final verdict: this place does have some places where it is possible to shop but shopping does not happen to be one of my preferred past-times, so that discovery doesn't make this place any better for me.
    Yet, had fun today. And most important of all, got back in time with nobody blocking the national highway today! So no apologosing for having fun! ;)

    Show time!!

    I had one hell of a day today.
    Woke up after nine, yet managed to get some breakfast at the mess! Then back to my room, my roomie and me make coffee and then settle down to study - something totally bizarre.
    And then, just the moment I realise we are doing something very unusual, one of my friends bursts in and calls us to meet her sister. We go to meet her, she says - lets go to city, we look at each other for a moment and then, we scream 'Lets Go!!' and burst out laughing!! and thus starts my day.
    We watched this new movie called 'Bachna ae haseeno' and I actually enjoyed myself more than I liked the movie for it was totally crazy to go like day two days before our first sessionals! Also, the movie theatre was a big surprise; it wasn't bad at all, atleast much better than what we'd heard! Then, lunch at the mall and back to the bus stop - that's where the real adventure began.
    NH-17 (that's where our college is) was closed due to some celebrations and the bus had to take a detour - a narrow and steep road; all the vehicles were lined up for they were passing every crossing one at a time, and we were stranded at the same spot for 90 minutes!
    So although we'd started from the city well in time, we reached 30 minutes after the curfew. And we had to write an apology letter because some people, the local people, were celebrating a festival in the middle of a national highway!! No comments on this one, just hope people who read this will realise the irony of it all!

    Friday morning blues...

    Its Friday, my favorite day of the week('course, only for its the last!)
    Wake up late, miss breakfast, trek all the way up to class in the lousy sun(yeah early morning sun in NITC in August - something unimaginable after my first year here!) and then, the 8 o'clock class gets canceled!! Every time I'm late and miss breakfast, class' just got to be canceled - another of Mr.Murphy's laws I guess!!
    So here I am at the main CC, writing this post (I came here for the air-conditioning and not really to write a post, just in case you've been wondering!).
    So, its a whole month into semester 3, the first sessionals next week (and hence the 'blues' on my favorite day of the week!). Time flew by so fast, we're still settling into the new year, like we rearranged our room yesterday (and a lot of people have come into our room since and decided they entered the wrong room!) and the first sessionals are already here! I feel like I know zilch, but I hopefully will put that feeling away by the end of this weekend.
    Anyways its time for the next class now so I had better get going. Have a nice day! ;)

    Nadal... 'King o' Clay' to 'King o' the World'!!


    Nadal just won the Olympic gold some hours back and from what I know, is the new world no.1 from tomorrow! :)
    I wont say much but just this.. THIS IS SO SO SOOOOOO AWESOME!! I'm happy! :)

    Nadal crowns summer season with Olympic gold

    Campus trek?


    Today one of our classes got delayed by two hours and my friend and I didn't wanna walk all the way back to our hostel and back so we just got out of the back gate and went wandering around. We like went along this path that went uphill and after like fifteen minutes maybe, we realised we'd reached one of the hill-tops in our campus! Twas a pretty nice view from up there; and we could hear continuous blasts somewhere, so we peered down one side and there was this quarry down there and there were people working there and it was a pretty nice sight.
    It was real fun to like start walking just like that and reach such a pretty place. And all that walking kept me awake in class! ;)

    DJ nite

    Tonight was DJ nite and surprisingly it was pretty good! I was expecting it to be something like the musical nights but I must say, it was way better: things are really getting better in college this year..

    A rainy evening..

    My hostel corridor tonight!!

    Two weeks into...


    Another week's gone by; time sure goes by fast @ NITC - a saying we'd all heard when we'd first come to this college, now we know what it really means. So much to do, so many things to do, you never realise how week after week flies by.
    The only time time does come to a standstill is the end sems; when we're like just two weeks away from home, time just seems to freeze!
    Anyways its a long way to end sems right now; everyone's still settling into the new semester; heard there's a DJ nite coming up next week but setting all that aside - I really really hope I get things right this time at college!

    Movie Weekend...

    ...was a complete bore!!!
    (This is all I gotta say about it and I'm only writing this post because I promised I'd tell you about it!) Nothing to get excited about!

    Ah!! Weekend at last!

    Its friday! Its been one long hell o0f a week; so many classes, so many many classes; and yet, I have been kind of enjoying college and loving college.
    Its been a tiring week actually; there's so much of shuffling to do in between the classes - in zero time and up and down the stairs (we live on the western ghats!). But college finally feels like college now (I know I'm probably saying this for the millionth time but seriously, I never imagined college this way). My classmates literally ran out of the class when the last one got over!!
    So its been a busy week and it went by so fast we never realised!
    And, this weekend's 'movie weekend'; it'l' be our first so stay tuned - I'll be posting soon about it!

    :)


    Something really broke my heart last night...
    I lost my birthday wish last night (I already got to ask for it at my early birthday party). I got to make a birthday wish after ages and I lost it even before my birthday!!
    But, I'm not writing this post to sulk over that. I'm writing this post because I think I got over it and I wanna tell myself 'Congratulations baby!! You got over it!' for I'm still trying to convince myself!
    Anyways the moral of this story is the secret behind my tireless smile..hope for everything, but never expect anything! Simple!

    Semester 3

    Back in college for semester 3, and trust me, college doesn't feel the same at all. I feel like I just finished a fancy dress show or something. I tell you, compared to first year, second year at NITC feels like heaven!
    Anyways I landed just yesterday and classes are yet to start so maybe I'll be changing my statements soon, but for the time being, college never felt so good.

    To my dearest friends...

    I'm leaving for college in two days, hence my terrible mood lately. But thanks to my dear friends, I had a fantastic day today.
    Out of nowhere, they popped up at my place today (with help from my mom and kid brother) to throw me a surprise early birthday party! They really made my day and atleast I wont go back to college sulking over being stranded there on my birthday!! And the best part was that I got to celebrate my birthday with my dearest friends, the only people who kind of know me inside out. This was something I had thought I'd always miss out on because of my college.
    All I want to tell them is thank you so much guys, I haven't felt so loved in a long time. You guys took an ordinary day and turned it into something so special!!

    Back to cyberspace!

    I initially started this whole blogging thing from my cell phone (I love my phone; to me its the sexiest thing I own even though it cost me only a fifth of what my laptop did!). But around three months back, the Opera Mini browser on my phone stopped working (due to some dispute between Opera and Vodafone!). And soon after that I came back home so I kind of totally lost interest in blogging, hence my rare posts lately!
    But I just discovered that the browser's working again! I'm so so glad because I simply love the internet on my phone, its way better than any broadband or wi-fi although hell costlier!!
    Anyways thats all I've gotta say right now and today (July 10) happens to be my phone's b'day ;) so folks, do remember to wish the b'day baby for no phone would probably have meant no blogs for me!

    Me, the sophomore!!

    I'm back home for summer break and guess what? I'm actually missing college!
    True I hate college and that's HATE in capital letters but now realise that's actually what I am now, that's what my life is all about now and though I hate to admit this, I'm hell proud of being a part of this (bloody) college!!
    More than two more months to go, I really wonder what its gonna be like when I get back there; the biggest change will obviously be that we won't be freshers any more and everytime I think about this, I feel strange - for once there will be people who'll be looking up to me!! Or will they??

    Musical Nite @ NITC


    Musical Nite @ NITC is a phenomenon by itself. So after one year at NITC, I'm gonna point out some salient features of this 'thing' thst happens at certain intervals!
    Its held at OAT aka Open Air Theatre. Till before we'd been there, from the description our seniors gave, we'd really wonder what that bloody place would be like. After our first visit, we knew atleast it wasn't bloody! Hey just kidding! Its actually nice, and the best part is that its ours, it belongs to 'us'!
    Its actually a terror ground for freshers. My first visit, my seniors made me sit with my back to the stage - though i'm sure they didn't do that deliberately! - but I was too terrified to point that out to them!
    Another phenomenon you'll be introduced to at NITC is the 'fish pond'. Either its really called that or it just sounds like that to me! So this 'fish pond'thing is basically the dedication counter where i think you gotta pay too. Its supposed to be a fun thing but I've seen quite a few people fretting over the dedications they recieve!!

    My own fish pond story is quite sad. Everytime I've recieve a dedication, the guy'd come running to apologize and say that his friend or senior sent that!
    Poor me! I'm yet to recieve a dedication 'straight form the heart'!!
    Musical nite obviously means there's gonna be music, which sorta hints there'll be dance too, right? So dance there is, but that's not all. For its NITC and its OAT, even the heavens agree its got to be special. So everytime there's a musical nite, and there's music and there's dance, there's rain! And then the red color from the OAT stands comes off and spoils all our dresses!!
    Then comes the most interesting part, because this is totally from my own observation: there are two kinds, better say, categories of people at 'musical nite'. One category is people like me, who go with their friends, groups of girls or guys or maybe both, who go there to chat, dance and basically chill out! The other category of people turn up for their sweethearts! They sit side by side, talking into each other's ears - I don't know if they can really hear each other through all that noise and the rest of us jumping and dancing around them or if they just pretend to be able to, to us and to each other! Some of them appear really sweet but they are a class of their own, and I'm sorry if I hurt anyone by this interpretation of mine but I find it real funny! I'm just rude enough to admit it - I find them hell funny! But you know what? Everyone else thinks this way too, I'm only too blunt to admit it!
    The last thing I'd like to say about 'musical nite' is that there's yet to be one I thoroughly enjoyed or where I thought the music was nice, if not all that nice! My apologies to all offended, once again - I realise it takes a lot to put up a 'musical nite' but this is what I feel!

    Today...

    ...was the last working day of my first year.
    And we had this fancy dress kinda thing - we all wore long skirts to college. I did feel stupid going to college all decked up like that but it was kinda fun; something on my list of wacky things I did in college. All the people who didn't know what was up with us were kind of taken aback but most people were upto some crazy thing or the other today.
    Nice day...

    Smithy

    Blogger refuses to accept videos in the 3gp format so I'll put up a picture instead from smithy workshop. Of course, it sucks compared to the video, but still, something for my blog; proof that I was there!!

    Smithy!! (phew!!)

    The latest useless thing I've done is smithy at mech. workshop!! Like I must have remarked a million times before this that- I HATE MECH WORKSHOP- i hate it even more now!!
    I had smithy last time, and you know wat- I'm not gonna describe what I did in dere; for this time I took a video of the stupid thing we were supposed to do (and which I did!) and so I'll put up the video soon so that you can decide for yourself exactly how useless the whole job is!
    And you know what, why I hate it even more? They gave me just 6 outta 10 for all that hard work!! Hate 'em!!
    Hey but do keep a look out for the video! Atleast for a little laugh you might wanna check it out!

    Ragam '08

    College, they say, is a time when you try out everything you have ever wanted, everything you have have ever dreamt of, and everything you have have never dreamt of!!
    So has my experience been at NITC. In less than a year, I've tried out so many different things I never guessed I ever would.
    The latest on the list would be the fashion show at Ragam, our college cultural festival and supposedly, the second largest cultural festival in this region.
    And tell you what? It was a great experience; learnt so much about the college apart from learning to walk on the ramp! I guess I kinda got to know my college better.
    In fact, the whole of Ragam felt pretty good. The college felt like college for the first time. There were people and stuff going on all around, and the rajpath (some other time I'll explain what that is!).. well, its never been more beautiful before; so colorful and so lively. Just being there, standing on the damned rajpath, and believing in that moment, felt good!!

    My first Holi away from home..

    Holi turned out to be quite nice!! Quite different from what it's been like so far!
    The best thing about the day was that it was the day our ragging got over, so like I can go to college now atleast dressed up like normal me!
    Apart from that we did some unusual things, like we got the water tank to overflow and then had a rain dance and stuff like that. And to top it all, we got a nice big treat from the seniors!!
    So it wasn't bad at all!! And the most important thing..I HAD FUN!!

    The Festival Of Colors


    Its 'holi' today, the festival of colors, and here I am, in college, all clean and dry.
    Man I miss home! And I'm like dying to get back home and be with my friends. There's only five more weeks to go before I get home, but I just can't wait now. The closer the time comes, the more restless I get.
    Anyways you all don't need to bother about that! Just go out there and have an awesome holi!!

    Mech Workshop: Day 3

    Today was mech workshop again, and I so hate it! Hell they make us work so hard!!
    Today I had to work on this thing called the 'lathe' machine, and to tell you the truth, I'm hell terrified of all those big noisy machines in there. And we gotta work on them alone!
    It took me one hour to get the hang of the thing and even after that, the whole thing was a bloody disaster..

    Today is Friday!!

    You may think I've gone nuts or something, but it is friday at NITC today!
    It's actually kinda fun, with everyone so confused, its quite hilarious. A little irritating too coz I being the CR, am being bombarded with calls and texts on whether the extra classes scheduled for friday are gonna be today or the real friday!!
    Anyways so far, the day's been especially good for me today otherwise ;)

    The Svalbard Global Seed Vault





    The Svalbard Global Seed Vault, located on the Norwegian island of Spitsbergen, some remote locale in the Arctic region, has kind of really caught my fancy. The photographs look like something straight out of Dan Brown's books to me. And yeah, all that ice around and all that talk about 'Doomsday' reminds me of 'Day After Tommorrow'!!
    But, coming back to reality, I really wonder how the seed vault's really going to help in the event of a crisis. The vault's located in some really remote location in the Arctic - i understand its located there to protect it from human interference - but when we really need it, when there is a real crisis, how the hell are we going to get to it. I mean, there will be very few who'll actually get to access that thing, and somehow I feel, at that point in time, only the powerful developed countries are going to benefit from it. And the rest of the world might just perish away.
    Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I've got absolutely the wrong picture, but maybe, just maybe, I'm right!!

    The Interview

    Hey!! I'm writing here after a long time, so about the interview - I didn't make it obviously, else it would have been here in an hour!! But that isn't the issue. They told me that if I answered questions like that, I'd never get placed!! I'll tell you exactly what happened..
    They asked if Intel came over next week and offered me a 7.5 over TI's 6, would I go, and I said 'obviosly!!!' And then they asked if I intended to write GRE and if I got accepted at some university would I go for it and I said 'yeah sure'!!!!
    And then they had an awesome time practically ragging me out there!! They got me so bad, I was saying one thing one moment and something totally contradictory the next!! I had them literally rolling with laughter!!
    But ultimately, it was a good experience, coz in the end they told me exactly how to answer such questions. I'm glad I went for this, else I'd have said all that crap at a real placement interview!!

    Day 3: 8:30 a.m.

    I made it through the GD!!! I can't beliveve it! And I didn't just make it through, I top the list!!
    So next up is the personal interview today, and for that, we had to prepare a resume - my first resume!!
    Now, after coming so far, I really want to make it now. Initially, I had just gone for it to see what it was going to be like, no hopes oe anything. But now, I really want to see my list on the 'placed' list. It'll be fun wont it? Well so lets see what happens..

    Day 2: GD

    Hey I'm done with the GD, and guess what? I spoke! And I spoke quite a lot! And that, when I absolutely clueless about the topic! In fact we all were. And there was just one guy who meekly protested that we were off-track and I like shut him off and he accepted it! The judges were furious with him! But they also pointed at me and said they expected me to carry the GD forward because they'd seen me come for the first GD and we ran out of things to say this time. I just smiled, didn't want to tell him what happened last time!
    I guess I'm pretty satisfied, now I believe I can do something about GDs, not 'that' afraid of them anymore.
    About whether I'll get to the next level, I'm dead sure I wont. But its okay, I overcame a fear today, and I thank the heavens for that.

    Next day-1:30a.m.

    Hey I'm back from the valentine thing. It was hell crappy, like I had predicted; but junk that, I have better things to talk about:
    The mock placements that is. I sat for this company called Texas Instruments. And know what? I got through the first round!! Next round is the GD, and its probably tomorrow. You can imagine how scared I am after all that fiasco at the mock GD!
    So lets see what happens tomorrow, I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

    V DaY: 2p.m.

    Hey today is that day I have been talking about- Valentine's day at college. And I already got like 19 roses and well, it isn't that bad you know! It's been good so far, I'm glad it's been almost a usual day so far, except for the roses of course, so lets see what happens in the evening.
    But, before the party, there's the first round of 'mock placements'. I really hope something good comes out of it. Actually, its the second round I'm afraid of, the GD. After last time, I'm really not sure if I can really do something at a bloody GD. So I kinda don't want to get to it. But its stupidity to run away from it like that right? Someday I gotto do it. So lets see what happens there too. That's my only concern right now, the V-Day thingy's bound to be shitty!!

    Mech. Workshop

    Today was my first day at the mechanics workshop. And as luck would have it, I was assigned what they call the worst shop out there-the fittings shop.
    Hell it was so tiring! We were handed two blocks of mild steel each and we had to file their sides to make them into perfect cuboids.
    I couldn't see the purpose of the whole thing, so unfortunately I didn't believe in what I was doing. So obviously, I couldn't get my pieces right!
    I must have been quite a sight out there, all sweaty and exhausted, for everyone who passed by stopped to give me a smile! And there were like three people there to guide the twelve of us and each stopped by to give me some advice. In fact I was so hopeless that ultimately, the guy who was the assistant took the pieces from me and filed them himself!
    So at the end of the day, I did have two perfect cuboids! C'mon, atleast I tried, and that's what they say is important in mech workshop. So I guess, all's well that does well eh?

    'Chilli Queen'

    Valentine's Day's round the corner, so guess what's the latest buzz in my college...V DAY cards!!
    But these ain't the regular cards, they've been custom made for NITC students. This is how they work: You pay the fifteen bucks for your card, fill in the name, branch and year of the girl or boy you want to send it to, and choose one from among various colors of roses or chilli. You may or may not provide your own identity. The card will be delivered to that person on the day, in class, along with whatever you choose and probably an announcement of the total no. of stuff he or she's recieved!!
    Apparently, people are going to be crowned rose king and queen, as well as chilli king and queen!!
    I'm actually expecting a couple of chillies to come my way! So stay tuned to this blog, I may provide some hilarious accounts of V Day, all in the middle of our mid-term exams!!

    Normalization!!

    When I was in school, I'd see my older cousins who'd come over from college and I'd find certain things very weird about them. Stories about dirty socks etc would disgust me, and their laid back style-studying and assignments at the last moment, no plans for anything, everything impromptu- would kind of surprise me.
    After coming to college myself though, I find myself trodding the same paths and my only comment now would be - 'yeah! It is kinda funny. But I guess its okay!'
    I mean, really, it is really okay, isn't it! It happens to everyone, and it happened to me. So what's the big deal right!
    Well the only deal's that it may not go down too well with your parents, so just make sure they don't get the wind of it! With this only important thing taken care of, you're ready to live your life, your way!
    There have been two really amazing developments in me that's sure to drive my mum berserk!
    I developed, right from the scratch, the potential to fall asleep anywhere, anytime, anyway! This, by the way, is a common trait in all normal college students.
    The other would be my ability to study with my earphones plugged to my ear. And not just that, the volume of the music has increased like five times! I never thought I'd be anything like this, I never thought such people could be good or serious students. But now, I find myself waking up in the morning and looking for my earphones to plug in!
    Dirty socks are no more an issue for me; I've got like over five pairs of dirty rocks at various locations in my room, and I really don't mind. I'll think of doing something about them only when all my other pairs are exhausted! Same applies to clothes as well. I have more dirty clothes than clean ones!
    I realised I need just half my bed, the other half's for stuff that just can't be moved elsewhere!
    But these things are only normal human instincts right? That means I'm getting closer to nature?? hmmm...

    Homesick no more!!

    I'm back in coll for the third time (its still semester 2 but we got two weeks off 'cause of chicken pox in coll!!) and what's really amazin me's that i don't feel homesick at all! The last time, I'd started with my trademark 'I wanna go home!' five minutes after walkin into college but this time, it's my friends who're usin this line, I haven't used it yet. And I don't even feel like sayin it! Not that I'm too glad to be back or anything, but somehow I'm not feeling bad at all about comin back! I guess I'm gettin used to this life now, that is why I've sorta numbed out or somethin but yeah, I am suprised by myself - I never thought I could get used to this place!!

    My first GD: A natural disaster!!

    This is bout my first GD, which happened like, a week ago. It wasn't a real GD, just a mock one, to give us freshers a taste of what GDs really are about. But that isn't the important thing here; the imp thing is that I didn't speak a word through the entire thing, except for when the judges asked me to conclude and thus forced me to open my mouth! I've been back to that moment so many times eversince, but I just can't understand what happened to me then. I have spoken before, in the very same college, and that too, all alone!! and to a bigger crowd! I knew the stuff to say and knew it'd be better than what anyone else had been sayin. It was as if I had just lost my voice!! I actually find that scene funny when I think bout it: I talk absolute nonsense, non-stop, and drive everyone nuts; but when I was asked to talk, I completely shut up!!

    Me...

    Hey there! I'm Trisha, or Trish if you like that better! I'm 18 and currently a freshie at NIT Calicut. Yeah I am gonna be an engineer and I guess this is the right way for me, because I've always been curious about how things work and now I'm really learning some of it. Yet I realise now, I know so little of this world. Everyone else I've been around seems to know so much more now, and they never pointed this out to me, they'd always say it was ok. But now that I'm livin all alone finally, I realise I should have known a lil more to survive this! I know, I'd have been different then, maybe not the way I am right now, but I guess they'd still like me, and it'd be a lil easier me here. Hell I feel so lost! And I realise this is just the beginning, from now on its just gonna be me and my life and what I can do with it. And I feel scared, oh yeah I do! I've always hated changes, and I can't believe this is really happenin! It feels so weird to realise that its never ever again gonna be like its always been, no matter what, its over, its gone! And it does feel like it did all go by in jus 60 seconds, without any warnings, just all gone!!